It's Back

Well, shit.

I learned yesterday that the masses in my liver are indeed the return of last year's breast cancer. There is no evidence of cancer anywhere else, so that's something.

The treatment is chemotherapy, and I'm scheduled to start that on Thursday. Before then I have a couple of oncology appointments to learn more about the recommended regimens and to pick one.

There's no cure for stage 4 breast cancer - instead the goal is control, and I've learned that some women are living quite a long time with the disease. I'm choosing to focus on hoping that I'll be one of those.

We will need a lot of help, but I don't know in what forms yet. This will be a day by day experience. The last three weeks have been truly awful and B. and I are both grieving - I think that's the best word that encapsulates the essence of where we're at. Grief comes in cycles as you know, so along with grieving we are living and we are hopeful.

What You Can Do
 
Think positive, hopeful thoughts and imagine the best outcome for me. Stick with me - I'm fighting this, and I need you. B. and the girls need you. Don't stay away because you don't know what to say - we're all just stumbling through this. Don't stay away because you're worried I'll cry or you're afraid you'll cry. That's all part of it.
 
I'll do my best to keep the blog updated with the latest facts and to let you know about practical things we might need.
 
In the meantime, I'm making every day as good as it can possibly be and keeping my loved ones close. Thanks for your continued love and support.