Yet Another New Plan

Well, since Doxil is something I'm severely allergic to, we're leaving it behind. Although I'm bummed to take off the table a drug that could be effective against the cancer, I do highly value breathing. So we're switching plans.

It will be Navelbine + Herceptin, beginning June 9. Those are also infusions at the medical center, as opposed to pills at home.

I developed a fever in the middle of the night last night (not bad but at the level where I need to go in to see if I have an infection). At 5:30 this morning B took me in to Urgent Care and long story short, I don't have an infection. That took 2 1/2 hours and a bunch of tests to conclude. The fever is probably from one or both of the drugs I received yesterday. 

So it's been kind of an exhausting 24 hours, and I'm taking it totally easy today. 

There are various appointments ahead - a bone scan May 27 to get the whole bone story, a heart scan (aka MUGA) on June 6, which I've had about 8 times before and is standard when one is on Herceptin, and another fun "Menopause Now" injection at the end of this month. (That really wasn't too bad but I will spare you some of the weird details about it).

I wanted to get this update out, and now I will go on to something completely unrelated to medical treatments, like a walk, my book, Wordament (a Boggle-like game on my phone), and maybe some bad TV later tonight!

New Chemo Today

Quick update using my phone app to write this.

I was scheduled for a new chemo regimen today - herceptin (have had this before) plus Doxil (aka liposomal doxorubicin). Earlier I posted that I was going to do Navelbine, but my doctor and I decided Friday to go with Doxil first.

I had a severe allergic reaction to the Doxil so that was abruptly discontinued. Thanks to Benadryl and a pain med the reaction was quickly managed, and I'm totally fine.

That was really freaky and not fun. But the nurses were completely on top of it and an oncologist came over right away, so I was in good hands.

Tomorrow I'll have an appointment with my oncologist to see what the next step is.

I had my first Zometa infusion today, and that will be every 4 weeks. This is a medication that prevents calcium loss and keeps bones stronger. Ironically it can cause bone, joint and muscle pain. 

On Saturday I began taking Femara, a medication that suppresses estrogen. That goes along with my monthly "hey you're now post-menopausal" injections. So far I've done very well with those - no big deal.

So that's the latest from Great Aunt Edna, who has trapped you again at the buffet table to go on about her health problems!

I had a wonderful weekend with my best friends from college and a great family dinner last night at B's brother and sister-in-law's house. The weather is good, I've got a good book going, and am free to go take a nap now.

Time for a New Plan

Just when I was getting used to Tykerb and Xeloda, I need to switch to another plan.

I learned today that the CT scan shows the cancer is getting bigger in the liver, and unfortunately there are now two spots on my spinal column in the bone. They are very small and are not causing me any pain. But of course this is not the news I wanted to hear.

I'm to go off the current chemo pills starting now, and next Friday, May 16 I'm going to go on Herceptin (which I've had before and is easy) and Navelbine, which is supposed to be generally well tolerated. I'll have infusions weekly for two weeks, then off for a week. Looks probable that I'll keep my hair.

I'll also get an infusion of Zometa every three weeks, which is a support medication to decrease complications caused by bone metastasis.

So even though Tykerb and Xeloda didn't work for me, it doesn't mean that Herceptin and Navelbine won't either. Everyone is different, so we just try different plans and see what works. There are more options available after this, too.

Now on to the weekend, Mother's Day, my birthday, and all that good stuff.

Healing the Whole Self

At the Conservatory

I've got a lot to say today, but let's start with the facts.
  

Medical Update

I'm in the middle of the 3rd round of the "new" chemo plan, and I feel pretty good most of the time. There isn't a pattern of symptoms and side effects that is consistent from one round to the next, but I feel good that I'm tolerating this well and no longer feel anxious wondering if it's going to be really awful. It's so far very doable for me, although more taxing than the last regimen I was on from late September - mid-March. Each round is three weeks long.

I developed a problem with my feet (due to one of the chemo medications) in the middle of the 2nd round, so discontinued that drug for a while until my feet got back to normal. I went back on the drug at the start of the 3rd round, and we'll play around with the dosage if I develop that problem again.

This Friday, May 9 I have an abdominal CT scan to check on my liver and see what's going on. This is a standard scan that has been planned for a while. Of course I'm hoping there will be some positive progress since the last scan. I'm not sure if I'll have results later that day or on Monday.

The last tumor marker checks were done on April 25 (there are two that are checked in my case), and one was unchanged since the last check and the other one was elevated. There's no way to interpret what's really going on from those checks - the scan will give us the key information.

Last week I had the first of however many monthly injections I'm going to have of a drug called Zoladex (where DO they come up with these names?) which will put me in "medical" menopause. We're doing this so that I can take yet another drug, an estrogen suppressor for post-menopausal women. Since estrogen is a fuel for this cancer, we're gong to cut off the supply. (I was on tamoxifen last year, an estrogen suppressor for pre-menopausal women, but that was not effective for me). So far I'm doing fine with the Zoladex. Hot flashes, mood swings, etc. are common with this drug, so we'll see how it goes.

Wow, after typing all that I feel like one of those old ladies who has trapped you at a family reunion and is going on and on about all her ailments. But I hear from many of you that you're interested to know what's going on, so there you go!

Lilacs from Our Yard

Healing

Thankfully there's a lot more going on in my life than going to oncology and scan appointments. I'm still working part-time, I drive the kids around, we went to the Oregon Coast for a few days during spring break, I see friends, do dishes, walk the dog and everything else that people do just living their lives.

However, healing and staying healthy and strong do take up a chunk of my time and attention. As B put it a few weeks ago to me, healing is one of my jobs. I am still working on giving it the priority attention it deserves daily, but I'm doing a lot to support my immune system all the same.

Just spending time thinking about other things other than my health is a very healing experience, as is being with and helping other people.

I haven't written much about all of the complementary care that I'm getting, but it's a huge part of my experience. I want to share a little bit about it because I've learned a lot over the last couple of years about what's available and what's helpful, and you might know someone who could benefit from some of these disciplines and practices (they don't have to have cancer).

Acupuncture

I've been receiving acupuncture on a very regular basis since I went through the first chemo in the summer of 2012, and I am big believer in its power and efficacy. In a nutshell it helps my entire system have the energy it needs. The practitioner I see is absolutely wonderful, and it helps body, mind and spirit.

There are different styles of acupuncture - I happen to go to someone trained in the "Classical Five Element" style.

At the Conservatory

Naturopathic Oncology

Living in the Pacific Northwest, there is no shortage of integrative/alternative healthcare. Some of it is quite woo-woo (which I am not opposed to - whatever doesn't hurt might help, who knows) and some of it is quite grounded in science that traditional medicine has accepted or is accepting more and more.

I see a naturopathic oncologist periodically who is familiar with all of the traditional cancer treatments and recommends things I can do and supplements I can take that will support my immune system. The body is incredible at healing itself, but ironically chemotherapy takes a whack at the immune system as it destroys cancer cells. So I need some extra support.

Counseling

I've found seeing a therapist to be essential to getting through this experience without going completely insane. 

Yep, Conservatory Again

Mindfulness Meditation

Another sanity saver. I can't say enough about the effectiveness of mindfulness practices, especially meditation. If you have a lot of stress, pain, anxiety or chronic illness, or just happen to be alive, mindfulness can help you get through it a lot easier.

I'm taking a class on Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction (MBSR), which is an 8-week program developed by Dr. Jon Kabat-Zinn in the 80's. It's taught in hospitals, clinics and other settings across the country.

In this same vein is guided imagery. I listen to guided imagery on my iPod many nights to help me get to sleep and in the middle of the night if I wake up and my mind is racing. Basically it gives my mind something to focus on that is relaxing and helps my body to relax as well.

There are many CDs/digital downloads available to choose from. Note from experience: I've found it's good to get a preview of the person's voice before you buy!  

Qi Gong and Tai Chi

I'm fortunate to live in a city that not only has state-of-the-art healthcare within 20 minutes of my house (which I have access to because I'm fortunate to have health insurance) but also many free programs for cancer patients and their families through organizations such as Gilda's Club (as in Gilda Radner) and Cancer Lifeline (which is an organization just in my city).

One of the free classes I've taken is on qi gong and tai chi, which are both mindfulness practices and light exercise. Like acupuncture, they've been around for thousands of years. There are many different forms, and the forms I'm learning are medical/meditative rather than martial.

I could go on and on about how beneficial I find these practices to be and how much I've learned about the body and the mind by attending the classes and practicing at home. They're not just for elderly Chinese in the park!

Oregon Coast

Massage and Physical Therapy

I sought physical therapy after my surgery two years ago to help with some range of motion and scar tissue stuff, and it was also helpful for that after I completed radiation. Physical therapists understand how connected everything is in the body in a way that few practitioners I have visited seem to do.

Massage feels good. So sometimes I get a massage. I'm sure it's got a wealth of actual health benefits, but even if it doesn't, I don't care. And my visits are partially covered by insurance.

Hypnotherapy/Suggestion Therapy

I've dabbled with this, and found it useful. If you want to know more, just contact me.

Energy Work, EFT,  and Other Things Off the Beaten Path

I've also dabbled a bit in healing modalities that are more "out there" and am happy to talk with any of you about them if you want to know more.

Books

I like to read books to gather information. Sometimes I can overdo it and overwhelm myself with other people's ideas and kind of lose my own way. But I've found some books that have really helped me with making my way through having a chronic illness. One of the best is Jon Kabat-Zinn's Full Catastrophe Living. That's where I heard about mindfulness-based stress reduction.

Nico Having a Stressful Day

 The Basics

So many other things are helping me heal and thrive. Beauty, nature, music, reading, kids, movies. Just having a good time. Relaxing, hugging people, meeting friends for coffee or a book group. Ridiculously cute dog videos on YouTube that people send me. A date with  B. Celebrating birthdays and other milestones. Having the cat snuggle with me. Road trips, the beach, planning fun things ahead. Inspiring messages and people at my church. Walking three blocks from my house to an incredible city view by the lake. Watching M play water polo or watching C dance. I have an abundance of wonderful in my life.

At the heart of healing are the basic essentials - enough rest, good food, regular exercise - and most especially, love. I am surrounded by love daily.

Even at my low points of feeling afraid, anxious. lonely, isolated - those human experiences that are so challenging - I know that I am surrounded by the love of family and friends, near and far. The acts of love - giving, receiving, caring, listening, sharing, holding, accepting, witnessing, supporting - are incredibly healing and give me the strength to push on and savor all the good that is life.